I had a rough Monday yesterday. Actually, I had a rough Sunday also. It just hasn't been the best two days for me.
A lot of things have been bothering me lately and I don't know how to deal with that and the stress of senior year.
I am a worrier. I wake up in the middle of the night to write things in my planner, I can't sleep knowing I have a busy day ahead of me. Heck, I couldn't sleep Saturday night because I knew my kitchen floor was dirty from a get together of friends earlier in the day.
I am a worrier.
I worry about big things, small things, things that don't fall under my duties as a student, as Vice President, as a daughter, as a person. I can't help it though, I worry about a lot.
My mind wanders too much and I think of new things to worry about or be concerned about on a daily, possibly even hourly basis. I make to-do lists for days on end, to do lists for every aspect of my life.
I think a lot too.
I think about the past, the future, the present. I think way too much for my own good. My mind is never at peace and it's something I don't particularly like I don't like thinking of things and cringing, or thinking of things and worrying.
My mind is my own worst enemy and I don't know how to stop it.
I've realized over the past few days that I need to slow down, I need to stop thinking so much, stop worrying so much and just relax. I need to go with the flow and stop all this madness going on inside my mind. Eventually it'll just destroy me.
I think this quote truly sums it up for me; my mind is a hurricane that continues to wander. I need to stop the rain.
